bad guys/enema

i.

for once- one time- i want to see
a movie, a t.v. episode, read
a novel

where the bad guys and gals
get away, scot-free

ii.

remembering the first best time
of my life:

you, me, a bottle of cheap
wine, lots and lots of head
in your parents' bed

now my head is throbbing as i bend
in the 'knee-chest' position

in order to best insert/inject
this enema

is driving me crazy; the pain
is hurting- my bowels yell
and my vocal chords scream

iii.

it depends, it deepens

i don't really like my
friends

or

i dislike having them

it's going to end
sooner than later-

this is an inoperable,
intangible disaster-

i wish i had cancer