illegible emotion/if the meaning of life is to find the meaning of life what does this mean; is it like 'the joke is there is no joke' or 'the poi

i.

dodging cockroaches on your walk home from the unknown
which is so sickeningly familiar

ii.

you sit

you feel peculiar

you sit with a phone in your fist, you sit and wish you were home (again)

you are sitting across from me

i am crossing myself like i've seen done in movies,

the sun is shining slightly too brightly

as i sip from the lukewarm grin of this illegible emotion

with eyes closed i try to read it
yet i lack the devotion

nothing but black

black

and more black as vast as green grass atop this infinite ocean

enveloping me

but forgetting postage

iii.

on the nod i found god shopping

she was pushing a cart through k-mart

i noticed, specifically, that she was only placing discount items
into her cart

i suppose it's true when they say she 'saves'

it just about broke my heart


iv.

if what you don't know can't hurt you then why is it that one can be ripped
to shreds by a person one has just met?

v.

i am so insulated within the liquid cotton of this trip
which isn't a vacation; indeed, the only destination
is further inside a head that wants nothing but
to shut out the rest of existence

and

alas, there is probably no real (religious) significance in being repentant
when held at gun-point or knife's edge,

certainly

there is no such thing as innocence

except, possibly, for the ignorant

vi.

maybe if we simply ignore it (and everything)
it will go away

and if it opts to stay

then its not like we'll notice or know this anyway

vii.

the day will come when all continents will be pangaea again

then you will always be within the same continental vicinity
as me

until then there's still the internet and dreams